Last week was crazy. I was so busy. But-there is a but… I was graced with some eternal perspective through out it all. ( I am SO thankful for the prayers that go out for me!)
The Lord has been revealing some really great and wonderful truths to me and I’ve been able to see them play out in my life lately.
The things that overwhelm me in my day-to-day life, well, they haven’t been so overwhelming. I’ve been able to breathe in freedom and peace, joy even!, through my exhaustion. I was able to get things done this last week that isn’t practically possible.
When I go through the day not being anxious about the small things; eternal, supernatural power has become accessable. To not think about the dishes in the sink, the laundry in the dirty piles (or clean ones waiting on the couch for that matter), or whether the boys make a mess at what they are doing while my hands are full (keeping in mind their abilities and that the intentions aren’t bad), or their behavior is obnoxious while they are learning something new (which happens almost every minute at this stage in the game)… When I commit to something that I know is good/better than what my to do-list has on it, well everything just seems to gets done – but in a different way than I had figured it out. Ahh, the Holy Spirit’s way is so much better than mine!
I’m also realizing that this Eternal Gaze I’m talking about can get knocked right off track in just one heartbeat… An afternoon of an unhappy baby, a husband running late, bickering over a simple toy, a beeper screaming to me about dinner… it all can pile on so fast that the pressure can so easily just overflow into tears of reliquished resolve or a screaming blowout.
I forget to have the “peace that surpasses all understanding,” stand guard.
Philippians 4:6 says “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ”
I realized a while ago that this peace… it’s not a lay back and bask in the sun/Son sort of peace. It’s a peace that stands at attention and is constantly aware because it is at guard. I mean, we are living in a battlefield surrounded by the enemy here…
And I suppose the only access to it, according to Philippians, is by prayer and petition. It’s just a little hard to remember to stop and pray sometimes when I’m setting down a screaming baby to rush my two-year old to the bathroom to deal with poopy pants and holler at my three-year old that he knows better than to touch that thing on the counter… Sigh.
Thanks be to God that I can do all things through Him! So my prayer today is that during those times, the Holy Spirit that I know is living in me, will prompt me to pray! That I may petition the Lord in those moments and accesses that sweet, sweet peace… Because now I have tasted the deliciousness of my crazy life with Eternal perspective…I never want to go back.